Ummapalm

i want to
but i cant
the reason that makes me want
is the reason that makes me cant

every little mention
every slight encounter
makes my blood boil
makes me want to wander

but you stop me
knowingly, you say those words
unknowingly, you flash in my eyes
i retract
happy to surrender
bitter by defeat
helplessness
is the first sign of love

sometimes you're a web im caught in
sometimes a cocoon i can rest in
i struggle to break free
then get tired and sleep
all in the same place
all in you

i want to push you away
i want to pull you in
i want to take revenge
but then i give in

you are the perfect speck
in my spotless world
you are the extreme
you are the nothing
you are the all
you are the none
and isn't that the principle of the heart?