Nothing personal
Its the 3rd of Jan. I'm a little late in posting my year end entry. But i'd rather do it now before i forget most things due to my short term memory.
So ya 2010. Began like a dream and ended like a nightmare. January i was in Manali. The most beautiful trip of my life. Stepped on virgin snow for the first time. Witnessed the overnight transformation of a place from green and brown to a magnificent, ubiquitous white. Had no clue then that my life would witness a similar transformation.
All the joy and looking forward to new beginnings of Jan turned into misery by December. My new job added 10 years to me in 365 days. I was tired by the travel and stressed and unhappy with my workplace. Count a snappy boss and chameleon like team mates. Learnt about people and workplaces. Did not like what i learnt but it was important. It's like uncovering new layers of "don't take it personally" every year of my career. I wonder how one can live such disjoint lives, every single day of their life. But ya "nothing personal" seems to be the workplace mantra. I can be a bitch or your best friend, as per convenience.
But God did sprinkle some sparkles on this mess. I re-connected with a best friend in this wretched place. Re-lived some of the best days of my life with him. Never thought that would happen again in this lifetime. Sometimes god plans some things that way. Maybe my purpose to be here was just that. And i don't mind it cause i treasure what i got in return too much.
And most of all love proved itself at every point. In all this drudgery it stood by. It defied logic, physical strain and time limits. From being here on my first day to taking half round trips of this tiring city on countless ones for catching some precious time together. For 'not' being practical. Because love isn't. For never saying it's not possible. It stood by through my rants, depressions, pmses and cranky behaviour. It silently anchored my capricious boat. This job tested me. Love rested me. Pampered me. Understood me. Was never stubborn. Was always open. Understanding. Caring. Loving. It showed me it was possible.
Thank you, star.
So ya 2010. Began like a dream and ended like a nightmare. January i was in Manali. The most beautiful trip of my life. Stepped on virgin snow for the first time. Witnessed the overnight transformation of a place from green and brown to a magnificent, ubiquitous white. Had no clue then that my life would witness a similar transformation.
All the joy and looking forward to new beginnings of Jan turned into misery by December. My new job added 10 years to me in 365 days. I was tired by the travel and stressed and unhappy with my workplace. Count a snappy boss and chameleon like team mates. Learnt about people and workplaces. Did not like what i learnt but it was important. It's like uncovering new layers of "don't take it personally" every year of my career. I wonder how one can live such disjoint lives, every single day of their life. But ya "nothing personal" seems to be the workplace mantra. I can be a bitch or your best friend, as per convenience.
But God did sprinkle some sparkles on this mess. I re-connected with a best friend in this wretched place. Re-lived some of the best days of my life with him. Never thought that would happen again in this lifetime. Sometimes god plans some things that way. Maybe my purpose to be here was just that. And i don't mind it cause i treasure what i got in return too much.
And most of all love proved itself at every point. In all this drudgery it stood by. It defied logic, physical strain and time limits. From being here on my first day to taking half round trips of this tiring city on countless ones for catching some precious time together. For 'not' being practical. Because love isn't. For never saying it's not possible. It stood by through my rants, depressions, pmses and cranky behaviour. It silently anchored my capricious boat. This job tested me. Love rested me. Pampered me. Understood me. Was never stubborn. Was always open. Understanding. Caring. Loving. It showed me it was possible.
Thank you, star.
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